Letter 1

My Dearest Christopher,

I was supposed to be able to see you yesterday, but once again someone is keeping us apart. I thought about you all day. I think of you every day, but a lot more on the days we are expected to be able to see each other and can't. I wonder if you are doing okay. I wonder if you know that I would have given anything to be able to spend the afternoon with you. I miss you so much.
I watch Joshua and Alexia play and think how nice it would be if you were here. When I have Jeremy here and see how much Alexia and Joshua love him, I know they would love you just as much. I think of being able to just say "I love you," without someone listening.
I want you to know that I never gave up on you. And I never will. One day I will be able to tell you that. One day you will have answers to your questions. Hopefully one day you will have peace.
I love you Pooh Bear.
Always here,
Mama Vikki