My dearest Christopher,

   It has been over a year since I have written in this blog. Almost a year that you have been home. I read through the letters I had already written. And although they were painful, I'm glad I wrote them. I'm glad I told you how I was thinking and feeling at the time, so I didn't run the risk of forgetting something. Like the dreams. I had forgotten. But it all came back last night while I was reading. That's one of the reasons I was sad. It wasn't just the situation with me and Cody.

     I just wanted to write at least one more letter to tell you how happy I am to have you home. It feels so right to have you here. You and Jeremy. I lost so much. So did the two of you. But we have the rest of or lives to build memories that we should have always had. I'm so proud of you. You have grown up a lot in the last year. And I am glad I got to have a hand in helping you grow.

     I love you Pooh Bear.

Love Always,
Mama